7 Days Sober
This is my longest streak in 6 months without binge purge behaviours!! I feel inwardly proud but outwardly there’s no emotion. I know this isn’t the end of my battle but this is great progress.
I now have 3 professionals on my team, knowing my situation and having my back. This is the first time I’ve been accepting of help and doing my best to be as transparent and honest as possible. There’s been so much shame in the past but I know that I have to disclose every thought and every feeling to truly understand what my triggers are and how I can change my thinking and behaviours to recover.
Friday was the first appointment with my ED Psychologist. I have been accepted into the Flinders University Service for Eating Disorders. This service is part of a study for trialling a new form of therapy based on CBT. I am also super fortunate that because it is a study, I do not need to pay. I am so thankful because the costs can really add up when seeing a trifecta of medical professionals.
I feel like I am understood and respected by them all which makes this process so much easier. In the past I didn’t feel that way but I also had walls up which makes it impossible to build a relationship.
Here’s to another behaviour free day 🤞🤞